For Gods Glory not my blessing

As I continue to pray for Gods hand in our life and for the incredible blessing of a child, I find myself convicted.  I find myself convicted to check myself, to be aware of what I am thinking and feeling and why.  I want to make sure that nothing I am not praying out of pride, or with arrogance.  Those of you who know me are probably thinking, as my husband stated "that wouldn't even be an issue with you".   He and you might be correct, but I also don't want to come across that way.  More then that I want to continually make sure that through this whole thing no matter what happens that people will see GOD's power, mercy, and love.  I want people to look at Him for the blessing rather then at me for how I have been blessed.  I don't know if this even makes any sense or if I am stating it clearly.  I wanted to write a post about these feelings so that I would have them somewhere that I could look back on and remember.  Our God is great, and yes while I am asking Him to bless me I never want to forget whats most important, and to forget why things happen.  I was touched and reminded again through the sermon yesterday that while sometimes the sickness or trails we go through in our lives are a direct result of sin more often they are a means for God to reveal His    Glory to the world. So while I have struggled for years and years wondering if this infertility was some how a result of me being unworthy, or not good enough, or questioning why would God choose me to bless... I realize now more then ever that it is God using me, and I want to have the faithfulness of Job through this time so that God's Glory will be revealed!  That people will see how He is working in me and how He can work in them!  God is awesome and is worthy of our praise!!

I come to you Great God to rejoice in your faithfulness.  I seek you in this time, seek more knowledge and truth.  The more we learn of your ways, the more we can teach of them to others.  We seek your blessing in our lives, that you would hear the desperate cries of my heart and would bless us with children.  Healthy children that we can raise to know of your Glory.  We pray that you would reveal your Glory to the world.  That when people see our lives they would know of your faithfulness and mercy and that they would be drawn to YOU!  We are your faithful servants and we rejoice, we rejoice in your unending love and your Great BLESSINGS! ~Amen